Where can I begin with this new page? Which direction would I like for it to go?
I know I want to know people from all over the world who are overcoming as I have done. If a person has not experienced....abandonement.....abuse.......alcoholism....drug abuse.....and many more things....well they do not understand us. I have many experiences with "normal" people that felt crazier than the craziest crazy I ever met.....and let me tell you I have met my share in this life time.....
More to come.
You know what the saddest part of all of this recovery is? That there are people who need to do that....and do not even know they need to....
that is scary!
They are the ones who blame all of their woe on another being. Never taking responsibility for anything bad in their lives...
I want to talk about all these years of therapy. I want to share what I have learned...Everything. I want to hear from anyone else who has something they would like to share also.....
I do try and smile. That is what this particular blog was supposed to be about. Walking through life with a smile on the face....I fail miserably....I don't know when I started to wear my inner turmoil....but somewhere I did just that.
When I was younger I had a smile...a BIG smile plastered to my face....I had dimples. Those dimples are now wrinkled. lol
I am getting better. It does not feel that way on certain days....but I find it is usually of my own doing....accepting culpability...well...that is a humbling experience....to say the least.
Yesterday I was miserable each nanosecond of my life...now I am maybe miserable 2 hours a month...the rest of the time...I am in turmoil...yes. But it is stuff I need to look at. The miserable comes in at times when I have flashbacks...emotional...physical....mental.....I have them all.......
I am the most normal crazy person you will ever meet....Come check my brain out....
I may be OCD....I was told once I was just a little OCD....I asked is that like being a little pregnant??
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