Oh my God I miss you!!

It feel like you were just a dream to me. I know you weren't though. I love you so very much. It hurt so badly in the beginning. It felt like a knife wound in my back. I still feel the great pain of losing you.....but I KNOW one day you will be back. I look for that day....Sometimes I wonder....will we run into each other in the Mall? In Wal-mart? I would smile so big at you just knowing you are in this world and you make a difference. I want you to know this. You changed my life for the better....just by being born.
I love you H.

Hello

My dearest little angel,
I miss you more as each day passes. I can not tell you what it has been like without you....well I can try....but, then I don't want to upset you....I just want to keep you filled in on the goings on in our life...
Sam graduated from high school....so did Adrienne.
Of course you met your new sister Bella.....what you say we call her Bells?
I love you angel
Nana

I love you LIli

I planted sunflower seeds for you. I hope they will grow big and tall like you my sunshine.
Nana

Pinky Swear

Dear Lili
I taught your brother the pinky swear you taught me. It was so funny and so memorable for me. I am sure you would have loved it also. I think he likes it.
Do you remember why you asked me to pinky swear? Do you remember what I told you to do?
I think they already knew this is why you are living with your paternal grandparents honey. Your daddy loves you but he has problems. Depression and suicidal tendencies on top of it are never something our children should witness especially as young as you were.
I love you child of my child...you are an angel sent to us to show us your love.
Nana

Bella Maria

Dear Lili
today I understand you met your little sister for the first time. I am so happy for you I only wish I could have seen your face when you saw her. When I first saaw her I thought that she looked like you.
I love you and I miss you so very much. I wish I could give you a big big hug so you could feel your Nana's love.