Spiraling

Does anyone know what I mean if I say...."I am spiraling"?
Imagine what a spiral is. Close your eyes and picture that cyclone type shape.....
And then imagine you are in the center of it....it is in your head but you are in it.....and it is pulling you down....it is causing you to see things from another perspective...a perspective you tried so hard to alter.....(change..change sounds hard to do. I like alter...it seems possible)
And then you are just gone....you have to walk away....you must.
this is how I feel when I feel threatened..or insulted...Must be a bad one to insult me....I am laid back......err....I like to think I am.
Now I am rambling......
spiraling.
crazy,
dark,
constricting,
numbing,
holding hysteria at bay,
I start to watch,
I am scared,
no comprehension....
Of course at some point I do come out of it......
NOw that I am older I have noticed that the damage is minimul.
I learn from every single flash I have.
I am grateful for them.